remodeling this life

I usually have something from my day to day life to share here – you know, inspiration for my writing. Today, all I have on my brain is my butt. Yes, my butt. I went to the doctor last week for a pestering issue and was sent to a specialist today to take a look. Aren’t you so glad you’re reading this right now? I know, it’s fascinating. They didn’t like what they found. I won’t give gory details. I don’t even like the words so I am not going to use them here.

I go in 2 weeks for surgery. For some reason everytime I have said or typed that word today, my eyes have welled up with tears. I know it’s silly. It’s all routine, I think. I have never had surgery. I have only ever been to the doctor for physicals and for pregnancies and I’ve spent a total of 72 hours in the hospital for 2 childbirths. I don’t know what to expect.

There are all sorts of funny jokes I can crack about how I’ll be a perfect butthole when this is all over and such. I know I’m a little scared. I know I’m fine. I just want it to be over.

I guess the only way I can tie this to frugality is that in the past week, I have spent $70 in copays to have my butt examined. They should be paying me. Trust me.