Trust
January 22, 2009 at 4:42 pm , by Emily
I have changed my mind. I said as the new year arrived that I don’t make new year’s resolutions. That is partially true. I haven’t gone and made a new year’s resolution. I think every day is a new opportunity for change, not just January 1st.
So I’ve made a resolution and it has nothing to do with losing weight, getting organized or quitting any bad habits. My resolution is to trust myself.
Over the past year, I have heard occasionally that I am a good writer. At my grandmother’s funeral a few weeks ago, I wrote something and spoke. I hate speaking publicly but I love writing and I love writing most when the words pour out of my heart about someone or something that I love. My brother helped me edit my writing, by which I mean, he read it and approved it without making any changes. I love my brother.
He told me he wants me to be a writer. To really believe in myself and write something – anything – for people to read and enjoy so they can see my gift. See? Isn’t he special? He made me promise, and promise I did.
I love writing. I always have loved writing. But I have never trusted myself and my ability enough to believe and anyone would want to read what I have to say. And when I started this blog, it seemed a way to hide behind my writing and when people were reading it, I convinced myself it was because of my content and what I was writing about and not necessarily me that they were here because of. I still don’t know the answer to that, but I am going to trust in myself more that my words are worth reading. My heart is worth sharing. I don’t know if that means things will change around here, or if I will branch out from here or what it really all means. But by trusting myself and believing in my words and my ability to put them down, I may just find the answers I am looking for.
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by Marelisa
On January 22, 2009 at 5:05 pm
Hi Emily: I’ve thought that you’re a great writer since the first time I landed on your blog. I’m not remodeling anything and yet I continue to read your posts, that says something doesn’t it
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by angie
On January 22, 2009 at 5:31 pm
you go girl!!!
angie´s last blog post..project fifty-two and 52Q
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by Vered - MomGrind
On January 22, 2009 at 6:43 pm
I’m with Marelisa on this one. I always thought you’re a great writer. I’m surprised you don’t have the same faith in yourself that others have in you (well, now you do). Good luck with any future plans/ projects!
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by Denise
On January 22, 2009 at 7:18 pm
of course you are a good writer – why would we keep coming back to read your blog? I’m excited to see where this confidence will take you.
Denise´s last blog post..sounds like fun
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by B J Keltz
On January 22, 2009 at 7:30 pm
Good for you! Your readers know you are a good writer, so its okay for you to know you are.
B J Keltz´s last blog post..Zap!
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by Sara at On Simplicity
On January 22, 2009 at 10:58 pm
“I convinced myself it was because of my content and what I was writing about and not necessarily me that they were here because of.” I can’t separate you from your writing: I love you both equally!
Sara at On Simplicity´s last blog post..Three Simple Ways to Be Thrifty
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by Aimee
On January 23, 2009 at 1:00 am
Please begin to trust yourself. If you already do, do more of it. Trusting yourself is a wonderful thing.
I have to say I came upon this blog because of its content, but I keep reading it because of your writing. I can’t put it any plainer than that. If you keep writing this blog, I’ll keep reading on a (mostly) daily basis.
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by Writer Dad
On January 23, 2009 at 10:35 am
Emily. Take it from me, believing is EVERYTHING. I spent thirty years not writing, three decades spent with less than the sum of their possibility. You are a wonderful writer, no doubt. Believe and it shall come to pass.
Writer Dad´s last blog post..Four Seasons
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by Steve @ brip blap
On January 23, 2009 at 11:39 am
I would absolutely agree with everyone else. There are a million blogs that cover the subjects that you (and we) all write about. What compels most people to keep reading is the writing, so clearly you have the ability to write, or we wouldn’t be reading! Believe in yourself
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by The Nester
On January 23, 2009 at 9:07 pm
Sounds like you need to believe what is already true.
you are a writer.
The Nester´s last blog post..To Flash or Not to Flash
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by Emily
On January 23, 2009 at 9:27 pm
Thank you to all of you for your kind words of support. Coming from writers around the blog world that I really admire and respect, I am humbled and excited. Thanks for the vote of confidence and not throwing tomatoes at me.
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by melissa @ the inspired room
On January 24, 2009 at 7:35 pm
Hey, you are a great writer! And I find that when I really like someone as I get to know them online it is because they are a good writer…they can communicate who they are and what is in their heart with written words. The content is great, of course, but it is because you express who you are so well that I enjoy coming here.
Go Emily!
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by Aimee
On January 24, 2009 at 11:01 pm
I can throw a tomato if it’ll make you feel better. But you’ve got the gift.
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by Everyone is a Writer | Writer Dad
On January 26, 2009 at 12:25 am
[...] to be deserving of volume. Emily, from Remodeling This Life, has had her own struggles with this issue. [...]
by CK Lunchbox
On January 26, 2009 at 12:17 pm
Emily, I’m a newcomer via Sean’s post today, and very glad that he did. This issue seems to be a common thread expressed by the bloggers these past few weeks, myself included. Your talent is obvious just in the few posts I’ve read in getting familiar with this site, not that I think you’re looking for any validation by this post, but being supportive always helps.
You couldn’t be more right about the need to trust yourself whatever it is you do. This goes hand-in-hand with dismissing fears and learning to be honest with ourselves. These three closely related elements, in my unsubstantiated opinion, form the foundation for writers (and really all artists) to find their voice. Many writers do not because they try too hard, while others, whether they write or not, stumble onto it without even knowing.
Thanks for such an honest post.
CK Lunchbox´s last blog post..I Had A Dream
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by deepali
On January 27, 2009 at 12:46 pm
I don’t mean to belittle this, but the idea that you have doubts about your writing abilities really just flabbergasts me. I might be attracted by pictures, but the writing in between is pretty damn good too.
deepali´s last blog post..reflection
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by le
On January 28, 2009 at 7:11 am
my heart sings for you on this one …. fly and be free to write as you will – the possibilities will be boundless – le
le´s last blog post..Brotherly Love
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by fathersez
On January 29, 2009 at 9:37 pm
You rock! Emily. Take my word for it.
Regards
fathersez´s last blog post..Taking out loans to invest in ASB – is it worth it?
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