My life has started to feel extremely overwhelming lately. There are times that everything seems easy and everything goes smoothly. There are other times that it seems like nothing is going right. I get behind in everything, I get disorganized, and I feel like I don’t have time to do the things that I love because I am spending so much time running around forgetting to slow down.
I find myself at times like these feeling lost, confused, and drowning in self doubt. I been feeling like I’m losing who I am because I get tangled up in things that aren’t necessarily me but are part of life and I have to manage them. I felt like I’d lost my voice, because I had lost the time I needed to slow down and think about and appreciate all that is around me.
Simplicity isn’t just something that happens and then takes no effort. At least for me. I have to constantly tweak, change and work at keeping my life as simple as possible. Some days, that is simpler than others.
To try to drag myself out of the funk I’ve been in, I knew I had to focus on me, my family and the things that I love and I needed to just immerse myself in it, forgetting about everything else. I had to consciously seek out the slow pace and simplicity I found myself craving. Even if just for a day.
Saturday was the day.
It was a cool, crisp, sunny afternoon. We spent the afternoon outside, taking turns giving wagon rides through the yard, taking care of gardens, carving pumpkins, playing on the swingset, relaxing, laughing and enjoying each other. By evening we were ready to start a fire in the firepit and enjoy the peace of a cool Florida evening. We ate hot dogs on the patio and then sat by the fire and roasted marshmallows.
We put up a tent in the yard and the kids and I snuggled ourselves up in there to have their first camping experience. Those who know me, know that I spent 11 years of my childhood going to summer camp every year. For two months each year, I left home and headed off to the rustic wilderness, living at a camp for girls with no running water or electricity. It’s been a while since I’ve camped but it’s definitely part of me. So I felt like it was a good way to introduce my kids to the fun and excitement of it and to also find some quiet for me.
It was all that I hoped for and more.
The kids could not have been more excited as I put the tent up.
After making a fire in the fire pit and roasting our marshmallows, we grabbed a flashlight and some books and curled in our sleeping bags to snuggle and read. No ghost stories involved, but we did read a Curious George book about camping.
Turning off the flashlight and finally laying in the quiet, a child on either side of me, curled up in my arms, I finally felt relaxed. I felt at home. My family has spent a lot of time making our house a home, focusing on the physical aspect of home, making our home a haven for our family. I care about making our house comfortable and cozy for everyone. I think an inspired and beautiful space for my family is important.
But as I lay there in a tent, sleeping on the ground without a mattress under me or beautiful walls or any of the comforts at home around me, I realized that home isn’t just about walls and floors and pretty decorations. Home is who I’m with, how I spend my time and what I feel in my heart. My family is my home. I needed to focus on them, without schedules and appointments and plans all over the place. Laying there in the quiet of the night, staring up at the stars, I felt like I’d finally found myself again.
sounds perfect!
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I am totally with you on this matter … the old saying “home is where the heart is” springs to mind.
I finish work tomorrow – and it will be the time to take the time that I will appreciate most come Wednesday morning … my best to you le
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What a wonderful post! Sounds like you had a great weekend.
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You have it together Emily. I know how you feel about drowning, losing yourself, and wondering if you’re doing the right things. But you have great perspective, and understand what should be valued.
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That is so true… seeking simplicity is definitely an ongoing journey!
Your camping sounds wonderful! We love “Curious George,” too.
Blessings,
Michele
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Emily, this was beautiful.
I’m not much into camping… but I feel really inspired by this post. Not to camp, but to slow down and relax.
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Beautiful!! You have reminded us all of why we are striving for more simplicity in our lives. Thank you for sharing.
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I also was a big fan of sleeping outside during the Montana nights when I was younger – Certainly not in October, but I remember being out there about every summer night (that it wasn’t raining) – and I can most certainly see it bringing you back to simplicity – nicely done.
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A simple life is a whole life! So glad you had a fun time!
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I’m not much of a camper, but the snuggling part sounded lovely! My anxiety and stress come in waves, too. I think it’s just part of life, how things strike you sometime, and of course dealing with the things we can’t control.
We’re enjoying some beautiful crisp fall weather and I’m trying to fully enjoy the sun and the lush foliage while they’re here.
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wow, I can so relate to the feeling overloaded and over scheduled. We opted not to go to a party saturday night so that we could just have family time together. it was well worth missing a party over.
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Great blog! I found your site from Problogger and I’ll add it to my list of sites to visit. Let me know if you’d be interested in exchanging links.
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There’s nothing more soothing than simple living. Thanks for sharing!
Stumbled.
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Amen Sister!
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That is such a great reminder, Emily. I often feel swallowed up by my to-do list. Thank you for reminding me that it doesn’t have to be that way!
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